I had my Cycle Day 3 tests done today (FSH, Estrogen, LH and some other stuff I have no idea what it does). Nothing too horrific. I love tattoos but damn I hate needles. I have a nice bruise forming on my arm thanks to my mum’s blood disorder but besides that all was well. I had my CD 21 tests done last cycle and it turns out that I am in fact ovulating so that was pretty great news. James went in for his “donation” yesterday so I guess we’ll hear about that pretty soon as well. My HSG has been post-poned until at least the end of August because my doctor is going on vacation! Grrr!!! I hate to wait. If I’m going to have to go on any medications or have treatments of any kind, I’d like to get going on them as soon as possible. I’m not getting any younger here and I’m just getting more anxious!
I finished reading The Conception Chronicles this evening. I would highly recommend this book to any woman experiencing difficulty conceiving. I was starting to feel like I was really alone and that I was losing my mind but this book really brought my feelings and experiences all together with a whole lot of humour thrown in. Thanks ladies for helping me regain my sanity. It was partly thanks to this book that I decided to start chronicling my adventures in baby making. Already I feel better having just written 2 blogs. Even if no one ever reads them I feel so much better just getting it all out and sharing it.
I was in a shop yesterday (Dragonspace on Granville Island in Vancouver) and I came across this picture. I swear that it is my baby. I have had this image in my mind of what my girl will look like and this is her (I already have 2 step-sons so I’m hoping for a girl). I know that sounds crazy but she looks like a combination of me and my youngest step-son. Crazy yeah, but also something to hold on to. I am happy when I look at her and I feel like she is a little more real. Maybe she won’t look like that but when the time comes it won’t matter. This image is helping me through it by being there with me and I love her. xo